sabbatical

i’m off of work for the summer! due to some overstaffing issues at work, nurses were given an opportunity to take a leave from work this summer…and i took it! i knew that i needed a break to rest and heal my heart. my prayer is that i will be renewed and rested so that i can continue to care wholly for my kiddos when i return. my phone rang the other day from work and it was a call to inform me of a patient passing away. we do that as a courtesy so there is no shock when we walk in for our shift, it’s supposed to allow us time to grieve at home. well the phone rang again the next day. actually i’ve gotten that call dozens of times over the years. i realized that my heart sinks every time my phone rings…could it be another one of “those” calls. and it’s not just a name, it’s a kid that i cared deeply for, a family i knew so much about…i don’t want to fear loss or suffering. i know in my heart of hearts that the truth of suffering is that it is for God’s glory and our good. i believe this as truth.

“I believe that every particle of dust that dances in the sunbeam does not move an atom more or less than God wishes – that every particle of spray that dashes against the steamboat has its orbit, as well as the sun in the heavens . . . leaves from a poplar is as fully ordained as the tumbling of an avalanche.”
-Charles Spurgeon 
so this summer, i will strive to play lots, love my family more than they could imagine, be joyful and allow the Lord to heal my heart.
ALSO, jed and i are on the radar for foster care so we are literally just waiting for the phone to ring! tiny update, right? with all that said, please pray for our family and for the kid/s that could potentially call us home. 
here’s to lots more of fun in the sun!!!

 

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