black cloud

i’ve been saying lately that there seems to be a black cloud looming over the children’s hospital. i mean i see suffering everyday but those kids just can’t catch a break. it’s been a tough few months of losing kids, receiving new kids with new cancer diagnoses, and trying to alleviate nasty side effects we inflict on the kiddos by trying to treat their cancer. it’s wearing me down. i’m constantly thinking and praying about those kids. they don’t deserve that at all. with all suffering, we are not dealt it because we deserve it or not. i suppose we should take it and immediately look to God and ask how to handle it, how to bring Him glory through it and how to become closer to Him in the process. sometimes those truths are impossible to see when its children that have to do the suffering.